Miami Heat won the Finals. Go figure. Totally feel that OKC didn't play their best ball in the Finals (they won the same amount of games as the Knicks, who I also felt didn't actually try), and I don't feel like LeBron was tested... don't get me wrong, the man's play was phenomenal throughout the post season, but I don't think he's proven himself great yet. Only time will test that out... we'll see what happens. But congrats, Heat, and all you new found Heat fans. He still should have won the first one.
Just started working on my Marko Man series... like, I've been "planning" it for years and years and years on end, but now, I'm like ready to write it. A part of the reason I'm ready to write it is because of a near death experience I had a few weeks ago, and a part of the reason I'm ready to write it is because I simply don't have much else to write. Hell, for all I know, I might just be a really bad prose writer, and Marko Man is simply my only niche... because I swear, I have a very hard time completing any type of writing dealing with any other class of characters. Marko Man and the related company... those are my babies, yo. Everything else is extra fat.
Still trying to get the most beautiful woman in the world. It's crazy, 'cause like, I feel like I should be on the level where I can just stop by her house and send her extra sweet shit and shit like that. But shit just hasn't progressed the way I thought it would. But it's okay. She's a grown ass woman with priorities and self respect, and I respect that too much. And I wasn't looking for anyone anyway. So I'll wait. . . . . . . I'll wait.
IT'S SUMMER TIME! and yet, for the most part, my summer has sucked ass... June sucked. May wasn't that bad, but, despite the few 90 degree days we had, I don't think it counts as summer. But June? June fucking sucked. Remind me to will July into being a much, much better month.
I'm getting a new computer soon. And I'm pretty sure it's going to be blue!
I can't sleep. As usual, right? I mean, I did a 437 hour shift the other day, and still took about an hour or two before I fell asleep. It's cool though, because when I do sleep, she's probably going to be there and shit.
I do have a few fights written that I said I was going to debut here on this blog. They involve characters such as Convict and Diablord.... but I don't know how soon that is.
ALSO, SCW IS IN (kinda) FULL EFFECT! I just need my job to stop zapping energy from me so that I can debut the gotdamn videos... shhheesh.
These bullet points are getting waaaay too short. So in order for me to make a long one, I'm probably just going to come up with some bull... oh no, I got an idea... let me talk about E3. Well, if I talked about E3, then this would still be relatively short, because I gave not a shit about E3... but here's my reasoning (so as to expand this particular bullet point)... see, I'm probably not getting any of these newfangled systems anytime soon anyway, so I didn't feel like being bothered with the E3 coverage. I heard something about new systems and no used games because Game Stop is a company of assholes or something like that... I just don't know anymore... it's funny, because I used to be all about gaming and whatnot when I was an aspiring designer, but now? All of that aspiring designer theory and whatnot has been on the back burner indefinitely. But don't you worry, you few fans, you. I'll will definitely be releasing a game of my own... eventually.
Apparently, there's a whole bunch of cool stuff on tumblr, right? Well, I know nothing of it. Whenever I go on tumblr, all I ever see (or look at) (or search for) are pornographic images. Mostly gifs, but standstills are cool too. Whatever works, you know? (Well now, you can't just say "whatever works" and expect not a single gay joke to pass through here, can you?)
I have to get around to resigning from writing for TNAStars.com. It's not that the place sucks... it's actually a damn cool website for TNA/Impact Wrestling related news. It's just that I've been insanely inactive there... like, even with the few blogs I'm posting here, at least I acknowledge this blog's presence. Over there at TNAStars.com, I've neglected it completely. I don't even visit that website anymore... then again, there are a lot of websites that I don't visit anymore or as much, such as TNAStars, SonicRetro, Shoryuken, MegaVideo, SlutLoad... I just don't give myself the time to visit them like that. Hey, that's life.
And I think the sun is on its way up and what not. I guess that's my cue to go to sleep. I might have to work today... I dunno... we'll see what my phone does.
OH YEAH... PIC OF THE DAY, FOR THE ROAD.
and you know what? One more, because she's hot!
No, that's not the aforementioned lady. But she's still hot though. I hope she don't get mad that I featured this pic on the blog though........
"But... well... shouldn't you post a pic of the said aforementioned lady then?"
I should... I should...
Told you. Beautiful. ♥
Now let's just hope that they don't get mad for these posted pics....
Your eyes, your lips,
Your thighs, your hips,
Those are the things I desire.
Games are played,
Dumb decisions are made,
But my insides are still on fire.
I once made you scream
In an incredible dream.
These thoughts I just cannot escape.
Dreamed I was your best, But then you just left, And I thought that I was too late.
You reach out for me,
Your hands I can see,
Our eyes meet and grapple a stare.
I let you grab hold,
But I stay un-bold,
Lack of words go and prove that I'm scared.
Tell you I should,
But those illusions were good.
I love that fantastic feel.
High risk, high reward,
I could miss, I could score,
And maybe I'll make this thing real.
So I'm about to go to sleep due to having to wake up for work in the morning.
I just downloaded about 30 news songs, ranging from My Morning Jacket to the Need for Speed Most Wanted Soundtrack (I really need to go in on these retro reviews that I've been wanting to do... got like 4 I wanna do... not to mention my Lost Adventures of Mark Wins... there's a new one coming... maybe... if I decide to release the details of said adventure.)
And just before I go to bed, something in my blog reading list comes up about Tyler the Creator.
I also remember hearing something about this Tyler Creator guy during the VMA buzz and how he somehow won some kind of award even though I never heard of the guy (granted, I stopped listening to modern hip hop and radios for some time, so take my inability to know who Tyler is with a grain of salt.)
Whatever the case may be, I decided before going to bed to randomly hear a random song that this guy has done...
And I stumbled across the following...
Something about this song... I like it...
Now, with this song, it might just be bias due to it being relatively kinda sorta similar to a situation that I'm kinda sorta in, but there were things in this song still to be felt regardless... such as the style of the song. And the pure oddness of the video itself.
And thus, I am... intrigued.
I shall look into this Tyler the Creator guy... see if he's worth my time... if the rest of his material is as oddly refreshing as this seems to be, then I just might become a Tyler the Creator fan.
Like, off the bat, he's definitely different from Wayne, Drake, and whomever else is considered "hot" right now, and since what is considered "hot" right now is mostly stuff I loathe, and this is different, and I like exploring that which is different, I might be on to something here...
Sonic pretty much sums it up better than anyone ever could @ 0:56.
Like... seriously. Total bullshit.
First off, peep the job description... washes dishes.
So I'm in the back, and all I do all day is wash dishes... unless some bullshit comes up. Bullshit always comes up. From minor bullshit to major bullshit, from fetch quests to extracurricular jobs that I should be getting paid extra for, this shit is a complete mess.
And then like... there is this abundance of hot women at my job. But I hardly get to socialize with them... know why? Too busy in the back washing dishes and/or running dishes to the dish wash machine. Hardly any time to take a break and just chill.
And then, like, the one woman that consistent comes back there to talk is this old fart... and it's like, devastatingly obvious that she's trying to be more than friendly...
And then there's this one chick... I think she likes me... like, when I see her, when she sees me... the smile on this woman's face... I might be reading too much into it, but I can honestly admit that my presence has not lit up a girl's face like that in a looong time.
But, you know... no time to try and capitalize on it.
"Wait, Mark, what about all that shit you were talking about the pussy payments?"
I ain't tryna miss out on beautiful opportunities either. But maybe... this isn't really an opportunity... since, you know, I can hardly get to talk to her... I'm a have to scheme that one out.
Either way... bottom of the barrel down here. I take orders from everyone. "Can I have this?" "Can you get that?" "Do this." "Do that." "Go to the food court and fetch."
You know what? Whatever. Fuck you. Pay me.
I'm going to grind this shit out. Got no choice, actually, but it really is bullshit that is going to make me grow more insane than I already am, slowly but surely. I'm already having sick convos with myself about everything I just typed here and then some... I really wish that someone was back there to hear the comedy I put myself through in order to get through these days... but then again... if the wrong/right person heard what the fuck I was saying, I'd prolly get fired on the spot.
Lol. This is rather dumb for posting this to begin with... surely, the wrong person is going to read this, right?
"Oh well. That's life. Leave a message. As a matter of fact, don't leave a message."
I'm kidding, if you got something to say, then say it.
PS: I imagined this post to be waaaaaay more intense than it actually is. I had a shitload of jokes, one-liners, phrases, and a whole buncha other shit that should have went in the previous paragraphs... but you know... strokes of genius only last but so long.
And then, there are things that wouldn't exactly have fit in those lines...
Like, I legit had a conversation with myself about what I wanted to do with all these plates... had an idea about me one day just losing my mind and launching a bucket worth of plates out of a window and saying, "PLATES MAKE MARK ANGRY" Then the manager comes, see what happens, and says "You're fired." And then I say, "MARK SMASH!" And straight up annihilate the manager.
Also had this legit convo with myself about how this shit really is like high school. Like, you got classes, you got cliques, you got drama at times, the managers are like teachers, and just like there's that one asshole teacher there's that one asshole manager... shit's crazy.
And then I already seen, like 4 people get fired. Promise you I've only been working here for 3 weeks.
This is literally only the tip of the iceberg. I swear, if anyone were to ever just record the shit I say back there... or just chill in the back nonchalantly without me knowing and just listen to me... you'd die of laughter and fear. Combined.
This is a song from what was arguably Luda's last good album... Large Amounts. The verse that made this co-Song of the Day is the third one... talks about money and women and shit... basically reiterating the concept of not being able to make the pussy payments. Like... I was at work, just thinking about my mindset really kinda sorta alienated myself from women. Which is, obviously, both a good thing and a bad thing. And then like, my job has me surrounded by pretty young ladies. But, you know... pussy payments. lol. Still, I obviously shouldn't shut out every chick... maybe there's one that will understand my situation and will accept it.
Survive by Rise Against
Ahhh... this song... the message is pretty simple. And yet, the message is so deep. I feel like this is the kind of message that people in any kind of life enduring struggle needs to hear every so often. I definitely kinda sorta needed it today... out here at work doing double duty without cold water and shit....
So I took a number and stood in line. :-)
The job isn't all that tough... could be better, could be worse. But the fact of the matter is... there's gonna be a struggle to upgrade. How I survive this is what will make me who I will be when I get bigger than this.
I gotta try and remember this shit. Like, on a regular basis. I keep allowing myself to catch feelings... especially for women who violate the 45 minute rule.
Additionally, I was never really the "get money" type, you know? Don't get me wrong, I understand the importance of money, but hardly believed that "money is everything" like various sources would have you believe and/or perceive.
Regardless... I need to constantly remind myself to work on me. I'm obviously not stable yet. Progress is a slow process. I'm definitely better off emotionally, mentally, and spiritually than I have been in years. But I still got work.
I've come to the conclusion that I work on me and make sure that I am at least capable of maintaining a healthy relationship before I can try to pull one off. No need in causing extra drama and heartache in my life.
So whoever "the one" is... you're gonna have to wait.
PS: Additionally, I think that other men should take this advice... work on you first. If you're not where you want to be, where you need to be, then chasing women ain't going to help you. Chase your (non-women influenced) dreams first. With money comes power, with power comes respect, fear, demeanor, etc. And then, you know... women. Even Nintendo knows this.
